2013 is whooping my ass

2013 is so far turning out to be a tough year.

3weeks of January was spent in hospital fighting off an infection and sorting out a collapsed lung.

I managed 2 weeks at home, where I then ended up going back on home IVs. Towards the end of the home IVs I started to feel unwell again and ended up going into hospital and having another 2weeks of IVs-so four weeks in total.

I have once again managed another 2weeks at home, during which time I have picked up a chesty cough virus thing and coughed up some blood which means tomorrow I will be starting yet another 2 week course of IVs, at home.

So far this year I have spent 7 of the 13 weeks on IVs, after the next 2 weeks it will be 9weeks out of 15 on them. I do not like these statistics. I don't remember the last time my IV time outweighed my non IV time in a year.

Changes are once again being made to my medication routine to try and get me past 2weeks before needing IVs.

Day 13

Have you ever had your heart broken? Have you ever broken a heart?

My heart has been broken when friends have died. I have been upset when I have split up from previous relationships but I don't think they have ever left me heartbroken.

To my knowledge I have never broken anyone elses heart.

Day 12

If you could wish for anything that would come true, what would you wish for?

I would wish that D got to have full custody of A, so that they were both happy all of the time. D is an amazing father and deserves to spend more time with his son than he is currently allowed.

Day 11

Who can’t you live without?

 I can't live without my mum. She is my constant, my rock. She is always there to support me no matter what. Even if its something stupid I have done she will always be there to help in anyway she can. I don't how I will cope when my mum is no longer around to talk to and turn to. We speak almost every day in some format whether it be by call, text, fb or in person.

Day 10

A dream for the future

A dream for the future, hmmmm I dream of having my own children with my fiance and owning our own house. The achievable part of this dream is having our own house that we can do what ever we like to it without having to worry about what the letting agency will say about it!

I dream that my life will be full of happiness and laughter and filled with people I love around me every day.

Day 9

Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days

Wow, hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days!

Well some of the plans in place for the next 365 days already are:
Family holiday with the soon to be inlaws
My wedding to my wonderful fiance
A honeymoon
Celebrate birthdays and christmas :)
Complete a birth sampler for my goddaughter and my soon to be born nephew

My hopes for the next 365 days:
To get off night feeds within the next 2 months
To remain as healthy as possible to enjoy life
To get the house decorated in the little ways to make it more homely

I dont really have any dreams for the next 365 days at the minute, still living in the here and now after the huge reality check of last month.

Day 8

What’s in my handbag/purse

In my handbag there is:
My purse
A creon pot
An inhaler
Packet of sweets
A whole heap of insulin needles
A load of receipts
A pen

I think thats it, its bascially full of some rubbish half the time and when I go out it has more stuff in it as well but that is what is currently in my handbag!