Catch-up

I just realised I haven't blogged in a few days (well nearly a week) and I was having a look back through some of my posts what I had put.

I also only just saw some comments from some friends and they made me smile to realise that people cared even if it doesnt seem it some of the time.

Things are going better now!

On Saturday I went to an agility dog show with my bf and his mum and their two dogs. Me and my bf ran one of the dogs in her classes. She came 6th and 9th :o), although Nell (the other dog!) did even better and got a 1st and a 2nd, which we were very happy about. Nell has good shows and bad shows, so definitely a good show for Nell. Nell loves going through the tunnels and has a habit of not actually going over the jumps but just running under them if she spots a tunnel in her eyeline, which then gets her disqualified!

Sunday I was at a church service celebrating 150years of the Cadet movement in the local boys high school and in the town. I got my own special invite because the CCF unit are affiliated with the Branch of the RBL that I go to, and I go down and help file their paperwork most weeks (they were shockingly behind in their filing before I went and helped and got it all sorted for them!). They think I am little crazy that I like filing things away but I just like being organised and get into a little system and what I can get filed away into their cabinets in an hour is more than what they can manage in 5hrs (so I've been told!). Then the mid-lent fair is in town, so me and my parents had a walk-through it before heading home.

Monday I was at school helping out in the class that I have been in since October. It's amazing to see how much the kids have changed and developed over the year, especially after not being there for a few weeks because of being in hospital and on IVs. The lowest group have all moved on in leaps and bounds and while they may not be near the top end of the class still the gap between them and most of the class in the middle has definitely shrunk, it was so good to see some of those who had little confidence in their reading abilities to have soared and become loads more confident. I was also asked if I was free on thursday (which I was) and if I would be able to go on their school trip with them as they still needed another adult helper. To which I said yes, so tomorrow I will be going to Belton House and have a group of 6children to be in charge of (the class is a group of 30 and their are 5adults). Then in the evening I went to the gym for my induction session, where we worked out what my goals are for going to the gym and what equipment I would like to use. Then I did about 5mins on each just to see how they work and what levels of difficulty I should be aiming for on them for them to be a benefit to start with, then hopefully the more I go I should be able to increase those to continue getting a benefit. I havent been back since then but will hopefully make it in the next few days.

Tuesday me and my bf went to somebodys house to look at somethings they were selling (he had brought a football table off her and wanted me to look at some dvds that she also had for sale) and we came away with 3board games and 2 books for me as well :o) . We then met my brothers partner and her little girl and went round the fair with them going on some rides ( I got to go on the teacups with her and a giant inflatable slide-she reached the top then nearly burst into tears because she was too scared to come down by herself). Her mum doesn't do fair rides anyway, but is currently pregnant so couldnt of gone on them. Then before we left my bf took her on the carousel (he was the favourite for the afternoon!) and we went to morrisons cafe for some tea.

Then me and my bf went and looked at a hamster cage (which we brought) and we also stopped off and I brought myself a hamster. I have wanted one for awhile and now I have one. She is called skittles (I don't know why, its just what I decided on!) and is a golden colour. The cage has some plastic tubing that she can crawl around in which is she really loving at the minute, in fact she is asleep in it right now on one of the bends! She crawled out of the tubing to get some food, took it back into the tubing then dropped it so its sat in the tube. So I think she is feeling safer in there at the minute than the main part of the cage. Although she has been in that part quite abit in the wheel which she also seems to love. I didn't hear her in the night but when I got up to go to the bathroom I could hear her running in the wheel.

Thats me about all caught upto date.

My day

I was right about my tea yesterday-definitely wasn't random but definitely was yummy!! I had roast chicken, mash potato, peas, sweetcorn, carrots, yorkshire pudding and gravy. That was followed by mummy made rice pudding-delicious!!

Today I went through all my clothes- got rid of the ones I didn't want and then generally tidied my wardrobe and drawers up. After that all the clothes I have are nicely put away and there's even a little room left for some new tops or trousers- now that's good tidying :o)
I then met up with my mum and we went shopping for my dads birthday presents. It's been good spending time with my mum yesterday and tomorrow (although my grandma is convinced that's because I'm ill and needed looking after which isn't true).
This afternoon I went to one of the gym's in town- Ocean's health & fitness and joined it. I have been thinking about this for the last few weeks. So now instead of doing kickboxing (as i can't afford both) I will be attending the gym. It looks like a good one (and one of my friends goes and says its very friendly). It also has a swimming pool attached to it, which is more private and most importantly CLEANER than the one in the local leisure centre. I am looking forward to being able to go swimming there quite regularly as well as using the x-trainer in the actual gym part and the treadmill and excercise bike. I don't think I will ever really be using the weights side to it but I will have the option should I chose. Also as part of the monthly fee I will have access to different fitness classes, so I may take part in some of them as well. I'm interested in some of the cycle or step ones. Particularly the step ones as I like that excercise on my wii fit plus and find it quite beneficial.
For tea tonight I had something abit random again:This is 2chicken breasts smothered in bbq sauce and cheese with pasta in a tomato and basil sauce. It was really quite scrummy and there was nothing left on the plate by the end of it.

My mum is really shocked when she hears what I've been eating recently. I never used to eat any kind of sauce (so that would of been plain chicken breast with plain pasta), or cheese. In fact until I was about 12 I wouldn't eat chips, however even now I prefer only the skinny chips or "french fries" as opposed to normal chips like from a chip shop. I will eat more french fries than I will chip shop chips (so I'm still quite picky). I would never have pizza but now love it and I would never of had anything like the meal I've just devoured today!!!

I'm still trying new things out and seeing if I like it now or not, I think part of this is because I'm choosing to try it and not being made too. Also it lends for abit of variety in life as well.

Pizza

Here is a picture of my homemade pizza. For toppings I went with bbq sauce as the base, followed by mozarella cheese, ham, more mozarella cheese and then some sweetcorn. I then had more bbq sauce for dipping the slices in once it was cooked (which is what you can see in the middle of the plate between the 4 quarters).
That's all. Tomorrow I am being fed by my mum so I doubt it will be anything all that weird, but thursday I have got some chicken smothered in bbq sauce and cheese to cook, which I think I will have with chips.

Random meal

I have decided that at times the best thing you can do when you have CF and know it's important to eat, is to go with whatever it is your craving even if it leads to some pretty unusual combinations. Hence what you see on my plate from last nights tea. This is ham and cheese toasties with bbq sauce to dip them in, with some spicy chicken pasta covered in a tomato sauce (you can buy it in single portion pots from asda, which is where mine is from). I must say it was pretty darn tasty as well!!

Currently I seem to have a thing for bbq sauce and also the pasta pot things!! Ham and cheese toasties have been a favourite for quite awhile and although it seems weird I think my hospital will just be glad to hear that I'm eating.

I am now debating though whether my tea combination was wors than my lunch combination- jacobs cream crackers with salt and vinegar chipsticks, a creme egg and packet of fruit pastilles. I sound so healthy! I would seriously recommend everyone to try cream crackers with salt and vinegar crisps though!!

Today for lunch I am going to be making myself a pizza- you might get a picture of that too!

I have also made a cake today and also plan on making some flapjack in the next few days as well.

Does bbq sauce go with cake or flapjack??????????????????

Hospital Stay Required

I am now playing a waiting game with the hospital until a bed becomes available for me to go into hospital to have ivs and tests to see if I have ABPA. Also they want to monitor my blood sugars for awhile (although they are doing ok) and work out why my lung function isn't going back up to where it was just 6months ago.

Not looking forward to it but the hardest thing is knowing that my sister also wcf doesn't support me and has a very low opinion of me. Life is hard enough when you are dealing with CF and diabetes, but when there is someone else in your family who can probably understand the most and offer support doesn't it's pretty tough. As far I can tell she would be quite happy if she didn't have to ever see me again or speak to me. It feels like I only have 2siblings instead of 3. Even then I still get left out of plans. It seems when we siblings want to meet up its either plans with my sister or plans with me. Yesterday I was at clinic and couldnt of met up with my other sister even if I wanted to, but didnt even find out until yesterday that she was going to be in our home town because she was meeting up with the sister I don't get on with. Then my brother went along for tea as well. Talk about being the one left out!! The nice sister isnt around alot so it would of been nice to see her, but things are so tense between me and my other sister that I just dont get invited or its not worth it knowing what things will be like.

Feeling pretty low today. Will probably blog quite regularly once I get into hospital.

I dont know if anyone reads this anymore, I dont have alot to say. I just wanted to blog so I dont feel so alone.

Struggling a little bit recently with some health stuff mainly my diabetes and its something that just makes me feel very alone within my family as noone else has that to worry about. At least when its something to do with my Cf if I wanted to I could talk to my sister and she would understand.

This is abit of a nothing post really, I just wanted to say my IVs finish tomorrow morning. I am quite happy about this but I also see the physio and get to see what my lung function is doing (not so happy about that).

Also I've just seen a trailer for the film the lovely bones:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ikUWKi0W5_g

And I really want to go and see it. I've read the book a number of times so I would love to see how the film compares. I am usually quite disappointed in the film versions of books I love (an example of this is my sister's keeper-nowhere near as good as the book). I have also seen some films, realised its been made due to a novel, read the novel and loved that more than the actual film. I just hope they stay quite true to the book and would love to see how it plays out.